Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Crush. Crushes. Crushed.

M maybe the first and only girlfriend I ever had till now, but like everyone else, I had my crushes too.

In a short span of two years, I managed to have two crushes.

Lets call my first crush R. What attracted me to R besides her clean look was her ideas and command of English. She always spoke fluently with a little lilt and was known for writing argumentative essays that showed her maturity for her age.

Somehow the intellectual part in her attracted me to her. We were together for the last two years of secondary education in the same class. R would occupy a seat next to me. Next to R would be her close friend Char. And Char happened to be the other crush of mine.

Char was almost an exact copy of R (no wonder I had a crush on Char as well) except that Char tended to be irrational at times even when she was obviously in the wrong. However at that time I found it cute whenever she acted irrational.

In the end I managed to spend more time with R then Char since R and I were always sent to some debate or essay competitions. Still, the three of us managed to spend time together too in the form of doing research in the library for some project since we were always in the same group. We hung out after school at the nearest fast food outlets and there was even once that we played truant (I was the class monitor too, still I managed to get away with it though that’s another story) and decided to just hang out somewhere. It makes me remember the good old days of being young.

Time bonded us and I was starting to have strong feelings for R. The feelings for Char wasn’t that strong because I didn’t really get to know much about her unlike R. R would share with me her problems and seek me for help often. Char would just keep to herself or approach R for help. Besides, she was quieter than R and would seldom talk to me when we were both alone.

Sadly, though the friendship among the three of us did get stronger, I didn’t manage to make much headway in the relationship arena. It was towards the beginning of our “O” levels that I managed to gather the courage to confess my feelings to R. Sadly; things didn’t turn out the way I expected. Apparently R was shocked, as she never expected me to fall for her at all.

It was around this time that the three of us split up and decided to concentrate on our big exams at that time. By the time the exams were over, the situation had dragged on too long that it became embarrassing. Neither of us broached on the topic again and I guess Char could tell that something was up too.

The last I saw of Char and R was during “O” level results day almost a decade ago. We just cared about the results, congratulated one another and left. No more contact.

In the past decade, I did think of Char and R once in a while but never gave much thought on tracking them down.

Thus, I was surprised when I received an email from R last week. Somehow, she had managed to track me down and had requested a meeting. I agreed to it and so we met up for dinner.

R hasn’t changed much at all. She had kept her hair longer but the face and the lilt in her voice was instantly recognizable. She seemed to be exuding a womanly scent too. If not for the fact that both of us were already attached, I might have made another move on her.

Dinner was simple and pleasant and we just updated each other on what had happened since we last saw each other. R had just graduated with a Masters from overseas and had become a permanent resident there too. She is currently taking up a job offer here and was wondering how the old class is doing.

There was a surprise after dinner though. R asked if we would like to get a drink and to meet another friend of hers. Since I was free, I agreed.

Her friend took the breath away from me as she appeared. In short cropped hair, tube top and a flared skirt paired off with heels, there was the familiar old face of Char. After the initial awkwardness, the three of us began talking like old friends again. Char the quiet girl has now become a confident mature lady.

A revelation and explanation took place over the drinks. I shall reveal nothing, but I am happy to say that the past is already over and I am happy to gain the friendship of two pretty ladies.

Labels: Crush

Innuendo Recreated @ 2:59 AM 0 comments -------------------------oOo-------------------------